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Entry 2,638 - Friday, Dec 12, 2025 at 10:51 PM Every time after I go to the temple, I'm blessed with added compassion for those on the other side of the veil. Tonight after many of us from the YSA ward went for baptisms, I was also blessed with a thinning of the veil of what it looked like with the veil dropped. While in the car driving, I went back to the moment I was baptizing Collin on behalf of someone on the other side of the veil. Then I saw two huge winged angels to the left and right of me. Then once they went down and came back up, I saw heavenly angels all around applauding, cheering, and rejoicing. There was so much happiness and joy. Then I peered back into the present moment with these eyes that could see on the other side of the veil, and the two angels on my side while baptizing were flying on my left and right while I was driving. I felt so protected. So loved. So cared for. I knew in that moment that I was safe and that there was no way the negative entities will w...

Entry 2,633 -  Stranger Things Season 5 Episode 4: Sorcerer  **SPOILERS** If you haven't seen this episode yet, skip this entry.   The last five minutes of this episode with Will was cinematic glory and left me with chills from head to foot. What Will did in the last three minutes was highly symbolic to what I am experiencing in my current life. Though obviously there are no demogorgons in the flesh running around trying to force people into Vecna's world, it draws many parallels to how the negatively oriented entities operate. On the negative path, the negatively oriented entities on the other side and on higher frequencies of existence are trying to enslave individuals in various ways. They attempt to bring them into their low vibrational realities where they are further enslaved and manipulated by those above them on the negative hierarchy. Instead of Vecna lying to kids and saying he'll keep them safe but really he's using their bodies as an energy source for more p...

Entry 2,627 - Thursday, Dec 4, 2025 at 12:06 AM I thought perhaps everyone had both a fallen angel and an angel tempting and saving each person, but that was largely based on how I grew up. With many in my family largely unharvestable, there was that tug and pull. Then any potential temptations are really from lowest order demons that we open up to when we break the laws of morality or words of wisdom taught to us by Joseph Smith for further added protection from evil.  As Book of Enoch touched on, there are lower order demons attached to each bad thing such as alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, etc. Entry 2,628 - Thursday, Dec 4, 2025 at 4:53 AM In the Holy Megillah, it goes even further than Ra in the Law of One in terms of those who descend down the ladder or, as Ra says, choose the negatively oriented path. Ra mentions how eventually at 6th density graduation, it is impossible to evolve more negatively, and so in order to keep evolving, one has to switch polarities, as in from negati...

Entry 2,621 - Thursday, Nov 27, 2025 at 5:10 PM In The Law of One by Ra, it mentions seven bodies within one mind/body/spirit complex, and, in an interesting way, made me very grateful to be the way I am due to this extensive catalyst from having gender incongruence. Oftentimes Ra mentions how catalysts help people either polarize by controlling and repressing (polarize more negatively) or by accepting (polarize positively). For the longest time, I refused to accept fully that I had gender incongruence, but that didn't stop it from being there. Nor did trying to control it through prayer make it magically vanish. Obviously it would have been much easier if I had it and then successfully got rid of it—treating it like a disease that needed to be eradicated—but then I would not only lose a powerful catalyst toward liberation, I would also lose part of who I am in this life. Being transgender truly is an amazing catalyst, especially for Wanderers who are determined to use the catalyst...