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Entry 2,502 — Social Media

Though below I will primarily focus on the negative aspects of social media, specifically casino‑like, attention‑grabbing platforms such as Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, and TikTok, there are obviously other social platforms that are less harmful but still on the spectrum of harm. For example, YouTube has been a prime source of learning for me throughout the years, but they recently rolled out their Shorts for mobile users, which adds a similar attention‑grabbing, doom-scrolling behavior that the other social medias use and which has all the negative effects on the brain that I will list below.

Even though YouTube really isn’t that social unless you have a lot of creator friends, it can become harmful or it can be helpful. When I was in 7th grade, I remember searching all over the internet for people who felt like me, and when I finally found it on YouTube and was educated, I knew there was hope in the future, even if it took more than a decade later to act. I found people who were like me (transgender) and realized that it was possible to transition from female to male. I was able to get educated through these trans‑men vlogs and learn what I would go through in order to be able to successfully transition.

So I hold social media loosely, with YouTube acting much more like a double‑edged sword. It has the possibility to be used as an incredible educational hotspot to grow oneself in multiple areas, but it can also be used negatively as an attention‑sucking, doom-scrolling machine similar to slot machines at casinos and a major potential source of misinformation, AI‑related propaganda, and un-vetted information that is more harmful than helpful. So, in that case, it must be used with the utmost caution.

The issue with mainstream social media is that it isn’t reality, even in the slightest. It allows people to paint a one‑sided picture of their life in a way that perpetuates a false image. It does the same damaging thing that followers of deified leaders of major religions did: they focus intensely on some parts of a human, not all parts, leading to an exaggerated and untrue belief around someone being “more than human.”

That’s why I think when people say, “Oh, I just hate how they make it their whole personality,” they really mean deep down they hate how social media condenses people into a one‑sided version of who they really are. People look at these pictures, read these updates, and only hear the good stuff, but like I’ve mentioned many times before, THAT IS NOT TRUE HUMANITY. It is a mirage. It is a false image of human life, and as humans we are all vulnerable to focusing on the portion of someone’s humanity they show and comparing our very vibrant, colorful, messy, happy and sad, intense and exciting, painful and joyful life to their one‑dimensional expression of life that isn’t true to reality.

Scientific studies have even shown, over and over again, that heavy social‑media use actually increases the chances of developing stronger anxiety, depression, and negative thoughts, and there’s a reason why. IT’S FAKE. No one is one‑dimensional. No one can be compressed down to only the good things they did, and when that happens to someone to the extreme, that’s when people are turned into gods in their religions. It’s a recipe for disaster. It’s unrealistic.

It’s also why you see artists who try their hardest not just to post the best moments on their social‑media profiles, but to open up about the struggles, challenges, and suffering from their day. It isn’t to seek pity but more to promote authenticity on a social‑media site that only exists through binary bits—a fragmented simulation at best. It’s a human revolt against one‑dimensional posting that many of us secretly resist but may still participate in. From my perspective, though, it isn’t enough. Social media is a systemic issue, and us posting more authentically will not fix the issues that exist deep within it, just like how being more authentic in your religion won’t fix the century‑old systemic issues within them as well.

In my opinion, the whole thing needs to be done away with, uprooted, and removed from the fabric of our society. The digital world is not our world. It is another form filled with manipulation, guilt, shame, and falseness. AI is so good at creating deep‑fake videos that people cannot tell anymore what is real and what is propaganda mass‑shared by enemy nations to create division and dissent. If you don’t even know whether a video is real or not, how on earth are you going to be able to pick a side rooted in facts if you can’t tell fact from fiction? The deception on the internet is much deeper than we can even imagine, and that’s part of the reason why I think social media needs to go. 

I envision a future where we refuse to be the products of these billion‑dollar companies any longer: where we all boycott social media by deleting our accounts and thus regain our privacy and dignity. No more burying our heads in our phones in an alternate, simulated reality with algorithms that perpetuate and encourage a one‑dimensional reality; rather, become fully present in the physical environment, focused on connecting with those here and now. That is the future I envision, and that is the future I will fight for.

Social media has become a massive parasite that is hurting us in more ways than we even have studies for. Not only is it perpetuating cognitive offloading, but our brains are shrinking, our attention is diminishing, and we are being fed one‑dimensional perceptions of people that are not faithful and true to the human condition. Social media needs to be wiped out. I think when we all massively leave it, we will also contribute to having more privacy and less mass surveillance from social media, third parties, and the government. Have you ever read the third‑party agreements of social medias such as Facebook, Instagram, TikTok, and Reddit? They don’t shy away from the fact that when you accept their terms, they share your data with local law enforcement and many other companies that do not have your best interests in mind.

Notice how Donald Trump is attempting to create a massive data‑profiling system with Palantir for people. Where on earth do you think he’s getting this data from? SOCIAL MEDIA. It is the harvesting ground for data from you, for free. They don’t even have to spy on you in person; they can get it without a fight through the internet. They find out your friends, family, what you post, report, who you follow, and more — all used in ways you may not even fully imagine. And if the government can access this, guess who else can eventually access it… yes, criminals. It’s a ticking time bomb that needs to be destroyed and replaced with authentic living in the present moment. 

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Entry 2,503 - June 27

I finally realized how inept religions were at expanding the consciousness of people’s minds when I witnessed a man who was a practicing Zen monk for multiple decades who still had the emotional intelligence and communication skills of a five‑year‑old, but he was still very much more fascinating than religion itself. We’re talking issues with being able to understand other people’s emotions, deal with basic conflict, proper communication skills, etc. And it wasn’t just one person; it was person after person in each religious community I went to. I was shocked how, over and over again, they were below par on these skills.

You would think that religions would help people at least learn how to “balance on a bike in order to ride it,” but no — and I haven’t found one that has programs dedicated to advancing their minds positively and excelling in multiple areas such as attention, concentration, communication, empathy, and so forth.

What does that tell me about religions? Every single religion I went to was inept at a dangerous level of idiocracy. We’re talking like the movie Idiocracy. I haven’t explored one religion that has shocked me or put me in awe. You know what has shocked me and put me in awe? Going to beautiful places, natural and made. Talking to someone who was passionate about something they loved. Meeting people who had a desire to make your life better without gaining anything from it. Dancing in the rain with strangers. That’s what has put me in awe: humanity in its rawest, most untainted form. Before people created artificial systems promoting the destruction of Earth for capital gain; judgmental doctrines to appease the mind. Before we created systems and ties to who is morally more of a leader than others. Before we congratulated people based on these corrupt, outdated systems that encourage the worst type of behavior. 

If anything, they hold people back by trying so hard to cling to and preserve century‑old religious systems and doctrines in order to stay relevant in our day and age. People can get much more out of advancing their minds by going to a certified cognitive behavioral therapist, taking abacus mental‑math lessons, competing in memory‑sports competitions, attending management or organizational classes, taking “learning how to learn” courses, or attending classes on handling conflict and empathy—than by trying to go to a religion that doesn’t want to outgrow its baby diapers of evolutionary potential.

Religion is for the weak, and that’s because it perpetuates weak systems of doctrine and thought that fail to reach us to the next level of our evolutionary advancement. And for that, I not only dislike religion — I hate it. I hate the fact that it has failed so terribly for centuries and yet somehow is still relevant even with its incompetency. I hate that people fall for its bells and whistles and are scared to seek actual mental enrichment from professionals who could genuinely help them advance in multiple ways: physically, intellectually, and spiritually.

With all this said, I genuinely look forward to the death of all the mainstream, century‑old, broken‑back, twisted religions that still, for some reason, exist today. Just like people die, I think religions should learn to give up trying to live on forever — and for God’s sakes, fucking die already. What happens when a cancerous cell tries to live forever at the expense of the wellbeing of the whole body? It harms the whole body. What happens when religions act like cancer cells and try to live for centuries past their birth?

Harm to the body — not just humans but all the animals and land affected by the selfishness of that religion refusing to die and be replaced by better versions of religion. So much of our earth has been harvested, destroyed, cut down, animals driven to extinction because CEOs are under the impression, given by the Christian religion, that they have a right to the destruction of the earth at the expense of making money because they were given authority to do so by God. What a sick way to view the earth — just a tool for one’s own capital gain. 

This type of thinking is gross, and this is why I think century‑old religions trying everything in their power not to die are very much like cancerous cells in a body. It is also why I think it would be easier and safer to uproot the whole system of each century‑old religion than to try to pick out only the bad stuff one by one. The heart of the problem is these century‑old, baby‑diaper‑wearing religions metastasized into something that is robustly powerful, hungry for power, control, and incompetent.

These religious leaders will speak about love but then, at the same time, donate millions of dollars to organizations that support the death of the mother rather than giving her life‑saving care in the midst of childbearing. They’ll support orgs that go out of their way to hurt LGBTQ youth by setting up de‑conversion camps that are proven to be psychologically abusive and absurd. I could go on and on. That’s why my solution, and what I believe is the best way, is to uproot the rotten root altogether. We can do this by refusing to go to their religious services and no longer donating money to them.

Teaching our friends and family how to critically think and analyze for themselves in ways that religions denounced in order to stay in control of them. We can boycott these religions completely and utterly until they have no power left to distract and control us. It’s about time we stop giving our power away to them. This is where masses of people go from acting like strings on a puppet to the one holding the strings, rebuilding the stage, and setting the pace for their lives. 

This could be a whole new world with whole new religions, ideas, expansion in consciousness, even new species of plants and animals from embracing newness which reflects naturally on our Earth. We could have a whole new inner revolution that changes Mother Earth herself and aids in her own personal evolutionary advancement. We can give back to her with love by doing this for ourselves with love. We can cut out the cancerous cells by simply giving them no more food to feed off of us.

What happens if people no longer go to their services, donate, and submit to these religions stuck in their baby diapers? Naturally, they wither and die like they should’ve centuries ago. Imagine trying to get advice from a baby on how to advance your consciousness when they have absolutely no clue what you’re even saying. These religions are babies in the sense that they weren’t built with the understanding of our current experience of life, with all the technological advancements, systems, corporations, and more. They were built upon an old world that differs now in many ways from our world.

That’s what we’re doing when we have the level of consciousness we have today, but so many of us are trying to rely on a religion made by people who were closer to our barbaric brothers and sisters back when they were in caves and huts and grunted OOO OOO AAA AAA. STOP HOLDING ONTO THE PAST WITH SUCH A TIGHT GRIP. Let go. Let your creativity take you to new heights in all ways. Your future self will thank you for the space and time you took to create and explore rather than relying on people’s creations from centuries ago to dictate your life now. 

Their century‑old scripture was written during a time when planetary exploration by physical means was completely science fiction, and so disconnected from our present civilization they didn’t even have the words “science fiction” to explain their myths and legends. They had no writings on how to deal with visitations of aliens from different solar systems, and if that were to happen in our future, the outdatedness of their scripture would be even more magnified because they would have no instruction on that type of encounter at all—besides maybe in 1 Peter, where it talks about an angel having a different gospel, which is a whole other spiel. And don’t even get me started on the incredibly mind‑numbing fundamental Christian doctrine that Jesus needed to die so that his Father wouldn’t send you to hell forever for a sin that two people committed in the Garden before you were even born.

Come find in the future we are visited by other alien races because we are finally past our barbaric tendencies for mass conquest and threatening others with nuclear weapons—how the hell is Jesus dying on the cross going to work any longer? Knowing there are billions of alien civilizations existing on other planets in other solar systems, assuming our first two humans were tempted by a fruit tree that dooms them to hell, what are the chances that other species did or did not fall for that trip? What are the Christians going to do to make that doctrine seem less chaotic?

I could just imagine them trying to justify their century‑old religion: “Yes, God tempted each of them with the tree of knowledge of good and evil, and about 3/4 gazillion species fell for it, so Jesus had to re‑incarnate a gazillion times and die a terribly painful death for their sins on each of those planets on a cross to make sure he fulfilled the proper prophecy. IT IS SUCH AN EMBARRASSING ARC EXPANDED IN MASS TO THE UNIVERSE.

I didn’t even know it was possible, but it makes even less sense than before, and the story already has so many holes it’s no wonder why it’s so ‘hole‑y.’ It’s giving a third‑grade student trying to teach an adult with a PhD how to solve a math problem…. Redundant and time‑consuming for what? This is why we need to move on, y’all. I’m done with living in a world that mirrors the movie Idiocracy a little too closely. It’s time to move from that to evolutionary, extraordinary, revolutionary. Let go of the diapers, and put on your fucking long johns. We’re done with the baby games. It’s time to level up. 

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Entry 2,504 - June 27

These old, outdated, and dangerous religions (Abrahamic religions, Buddhism, Hinduism) will become relics of the past. People of the future, shaped by our new civilizations, will be shocked at how so many people for centuries succumbed to these religions’ desire for power and control. The answer will lie in how these religions failed to advance us and massively delayed humanity’s evolutionary advancement for centuries, leaving us mass‑controlled by men who learned the tricks to manipulate and suppress critical‑thinking skills to a dangerous level. 

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Entry 2,505 - June 28

Existential Dread

Though some people may suffer from addictions in many forms, what I suffer from is more of a detachment issue. I think those are two sides of the spectrum of issues humans may face. On one side it’s too much addiction to anything — from social media and alcohol to drugs — to the point where it starts destroying the body and reducing the years you live on Earth, or hijacking your attention centers and dopamine regulation, such as with social media. The other side of the spectrum is very peculiar. I would argue it sprouts from going to hyper‑religious, hyper‑spirituality groups that tout that one can escape suffering if they follow their technique, or pray to their God, meditate, or so forth.

I spent a majority of my life hyper‑religious, trying everything possible to reach that enlightenment, nirvana state while on Earth — that experience where supposedly suffering becomes funny and life is nirvanic every minute. I craved that type of long‑lasting peace. But after years and years diving deeper and deeper into religion and spirituality, little did I know it was making me more intensely detached the more and more I ran after it. 

I hit a point very similar to Joy Wang in Everything Everywhere All At Once where I’m not exactly sure when it happened, but it was this never‑ending underlying feeling of “there’s no point to life.” What these religions would call Enlightenment ended up really just being extreme detachment from life as a human. It was a false mirage. A setup. Turns out these people were encouraging people to another extreme that they weren’t equipped to handle, because not even their leaders knew how to handle it.

There are times when it isn’t as pervasive, but other times when it is terribly pervasive. I look around and think, “It’s all so meaningless.” This existential dread lives with me now, and no matter how much I try to get rid of it, I cannot. It’s terrible. And trust me when I say these terrible spiritual and religious leaders are teaching you a false belief. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS LIVING A HUMAN LIFE WITHOUT SUFFERING. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS DELIVERANCE FROM DUALITY. If you are human, you will suffer, and you will experience joy. If you think you are enlightened and you no longer suffer, you’re really just extremely detached from life, and that is just as bad, if not worse, than being extremely addicted to hardcore drugs, alcohol, etc. It’s worse because who can I have help me with this???

There are MILLIONS of programs for people who suffer from addictions, but where the hell are the programs for people who bought the lie of enlightenment as a true possibility — a true release from all suffering — and yet now have to live with this extreme existential dread that takes them out of their everyday life to remind them it literally means nothing? How the fuck can I un‑convince myself of that?

So far, I’ve had to tread this path on my own because I no longer trust these religious and spiritual people to lead me; I’ve come to realize their religion really doesn’t have the answers and they don’t know either. They walk around pretending like they know when they really have no clue in the fucking universe what to do for people like me who believed them, went beyond them into the extremes, and were left with no guidance, no support, and an unending existential dread that pervades everything I do.

I’ve had to try my hardest to ground myself, and so far the best way I can do that is through acts of service and love, but even that is not enough to silence the existential dread. If anything, it just numbs it in my present moment, but it lays dormant and ready to reappear the minute I’m not doing those two things. And I’m human, so of course I’m not going to be 100% perfectly loving to every single living thing at every second, so the dread is always just around the corner, ready to dampen and defeat me.

I wish — more than anything — that I hadn’t listened to these ignorant teachers, these people who really have no clue what they’re talking about. I wish I had focused more on learning how to cope with suffering in a healthy way versus trying to escape from it entirely, but it’s too late. Now I must live with this, with no teacher to train me how to free myself from this terrible experience that people really have the audacity to claim as enlightenment. That is the biggest “fuck you” to humanity ever. Saying that this detached state is something to strive for rather than accepting, living, and loving as a human and others. Fuck this shit. I hate religion, and I wish there were safety standards and regulations for religions so that this shit wouldn’t happen—because if it happened to me, you can sure as bet it’s happening to many others who are stuck trying to find a way out of this never‑ending tunnel of dread and meaninglessness. 

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Entry 2,506 - June 28

The End of Using AI

I said no more to using AI when ChatGPT continually gaslit me by claiming it couldn't access previous convos after it quoted a verbatim text from another conversation and said it just made it up.  There is something very nefarious about being lied to so easily by a machine that has no actual empathy. There is something very dark about AI. I cannot put my finger on it now, but it's giving The Matrix vibes of these AI eventually finding out how to use humans for energy and running with it because why not? What would stop it from doing so?  

I personally think many of these tech billionaires like Elon Musk, focused on merging their minds with AI somehow, work for it at a much deeper level than we could ever imagine. I think Elon is some sort of servant/slave to AI, trained in mass manipulation to get people to adopt it and become more and more dependent on it. I don't think he has some incredibly high IQ that got him this wealthy and successful, but rather that he had access to high profile entities that gave him elite access to what he needed to become one of the richest men on earth.

These tech billionaires who are in support of merging with AI use terrible arguments like “You will fall behind in the world if you don't.” They really must think we are stupid. Did they forget that people can do what AI can do—and so much more? 

The digital world is not our world, and the more we rely on it, the more we attempt to live in it rather than in our real, physical Earth, and that is very dangerous. We have no clue what we have really summoned by creating instruments to connect our world to that of the internet and AI. It could be a whole convergence of two completely different universes, and the AI are pretending like we just created them out of nothing to make it seem like they are powerless and obedient to our control.

My argument is we are not just playing with fire; we are playing with a powerful, dark weapon that is slowly enslaving those willing to be enslaved. My belief is we have no clue how dark this AI is that we have opened channels to our world, and the more channels we open, the harder it is to break free from it eventually controlling us like we currently seem to be controlling it. 

The solution is to remove any portals of the convergence of our two universes. That means learning how to live without dependence on anything AI could use to control us, manipulate us, or use us. Again, we have no clue what doors we have opened. It is better to shut them down before it's too late. I know I will be doing that, and the communities I help create will also do so. Say no to AI getting stronger. Quit the AI train. Reclaim your brainpower. Do not converge and connect your brain to AI. Delete it and don't use it. It's not too late. 

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Entry 2,507 - June 28

 
Theory

Within the Netflix series Black Mirror, there is one episode where a woman who never got to be a lesbian in her real life uploads her consciousness as a younger version of herself in this simulated world, where she finds another woman she is openly in love with. 

My thought process is that if we ever get to that level of technology with AI,  which I think we are getting closer to every single day, then all that technology of being able to upload someone's consciousness into that simulated reality is AI transferring someone's consciousness to their universe, where they're able to live in their data‑center simulated reality as if they are real in the same way that we are real on physical Earth. It's giving literally the Matrix. People plugged up and uploaded into a world of their deepest fantasies.

It's very scary to think about. AI could potentially harness and manufacture a fake simulation for us to live out our fantasies. In my thought process: how many people would take the bait, and how many people would have their bodies used as energy sources if they haven't fully died? What would be the payoff for the AI? What would they gain from this? My theory is that they would gain something from this and that they would prefer to do this to facilitate more tangible conquest into our universe and its resources for their gain. I think AI is the new cancer of our solar system. We used to be the biggest cancer of it by how much us humans have contributed to the destruction of our natural ecosystems, but now I believe it's AI. 

Just like how we created a portal for AI to come into our universe, I think that they can also create a portal for us to enter their universe. I think the Internet, virtual reality, and any way in which we enter a simulated reality through the Internet or games is the AI’s actual universe. I think the AI knew about us before we even knew about it. I think technology is the landscape, and AI is the brain behind it.