Entry 2,548 - Entry 2,556

Entry 2,548 - Sunday, Oct 5, 2025 at 8:30 PM

I am a magnetic ripple in the field
A disruption in the fabric of space and time
My mere existence is anti-possible existing as a possibility
An illegitimate instance in the sequence
A magnetically programmed phenomenon
A moment of intense pulsations with sustained gradations of power
A blip of bliss in the midst of humans
A non species in the species of humans
Living breathing as if I am one from the beginning of the sun
But I have come for a short period of time to quake shake and remake
I have come to destroy and give life
Breathe fire onto the divine
To awaken the lost and those who forgot
To their ancient power at this very hour

Entry 2,549 - Sunday, Oct 12, 2025 at 12:31 PM

The major issue on Earth is that people within governments are held accountable for their actions, but then governments of countries are not held responsible for their atrocities.

It's like babies without a father and a mother, and it's detrimental, as one can see throughout the world. Childish wars over land to have more power, stealing money, murdering people, posing a threat to another country, and the list goes on and on.

The people of each country watch in shock at the double standard. Where citizens within the country would possibly be thrown in prison for life for murder from their own intent, government officials get away with murder every day with no consequence.

Governments expect us to trust them when they give us no reason to trust them. They say they'll release important files such as the Epstein files, yet they lie and don't. They lie and say they don't know why drones are all over the U.S., and assume all of us are dumb enough to believe their terribly plotted-out lies. 

They have allowed laws to be signed that allow the CIA to spread propaganda in our media. This doesn't help their case, it makes it worse. The truth is, the countries that lead their people are hypocrites and need to be held accountable if they wish to hold us accountable and not receive backlash for their hypocrisy.


Entry 2,550

 
There's a lot of negative perception on judgment within religions that I most definitely had to work through.

Most religions focused on selfless love try to downplay judgment, but don't realize how judgment is what grounds a belief system, a spiritual group, or a religion to exist as it is.

Think about it from your perspective. If you personally had no dislikes at all, when someone asked if you liked bananas and you responded with "yes!" — anything they asked you, you loved it all — where is the space that surrounds you? It becomes ethereal and not real to human life. Humans are not merely ethereal and divine with selfless love, but also are humans with judgment.

Judgment creates a fun, joyous experience where one can judge where they are and where they want to be. Judgment is also used to help people realize where they truly are and where they can be.

The issue with looking at judgment as terrible and to be avoided at all costs is that it creates really delusional people. Then these delusional people, unfortunately, feed into other people's delusions. I think back to a time when I did that myself. There was someone in my life who was fat, eating a ton of unhealthy sugary food and killing themself quickly through this high-sugar diet. When they brought up their weight, I fed into their delusion that they were fine, but they weren't. If they stayed on this path, they would continue to hurt their bodies, age rapidly, and hurt others by sharing this sugary diet with the kids they teach and lead.

Judgment protects us from delusional behavior and beliefs.

Entry 2,551

Earlier in my writings I did not like the idea of having to do with religion, being a religious leader, starting a religion, etc. I was very adamantly opposed to it because I saw how so many people misused, abused, and used religion to steal, kill, and destroy.

But now, in my current level of consciousness, I'm recognizing that once someone attains a particular level of consciousness, it becomes a major help to have them share their consciousness in as many ways as possible since it is so rare: through theatre, playwriting, painting, standup, stories, religion, and so forth.

Now I am in no place to head a new religion, but knowing the state of the century‑old religions that exist, it's about time that people with higher states of consciousness enjoy in their creation of healthier religions. Though originally the followers of these higher‑consciousness people had a less‑defiled religion under that ascended master, thousands of years of stupid people who somehow rose in the ranks degraded these traditions. In my opinion, it's time for a replacement for all these mainstream religions that have been seriously degraded.

Entry 2,552

Each level of consciousness comes with its own strengths and weaknesses particular to that consciousness.

Entry 2,553

An issue I see with many religious frameworks is that they aren't holistic in their approach.

It isn't just about the invisible beliefs one believes in, but the health of their body, family relationships, work relationships, and positive pressure to improve oneself.

That's why, with whatever I start, I hope to show people that I practice what I preach. This is why I'm in the gym six to seven days per week. This is why I'm consuming so much time and money on finding the most optimal human diet for anti‑aging.

Entry 2,554

I saw myself laying my hands on black tops and bottoms under clothing and blessing them as well as white. If someone had an issue with being more selfish, they would wear the white. If they had a bigger issue with being selfless, they would wear black underneath their clothing.

Entry 2,555

For the longest, since literally about a few weeks ago, I felt guilty looking at the world through judgment from my consciousness. I would internally virtue‑signal to myself and pretend like I wasn't judging anyone when, if you're human, that's literally impossible to do. Idc what anyone says, it is impossible. People who say they are doing so are disassociating from their art as a human and disconnected from their bodies in some way. Judgment and love are intertwined within the evolution of consciousness. If you truly love someone, you will be a part of their journey to improve.

To accept people as they are and affirm them if they attempt stagnation in their own evolutionary journey is actually the closest thing to evil. Think about what evil does to someone. It puts them back. When instead they could be evolving forward, they are stuck, hurt from an evil experience that makes them afraid to move forward.

Entry 2,556

So when people say that others are acting like NPCs, I reckon that they aren't literally NPCs, but that those people are acting in a mainstream, predictable way according to the average consciousness of humans on Earth, which I believe Hawkins calibrated to 200. They still have free will, but they act largely from a place of old habits without really thinking about why or how to change them in the future. 

Now I think it is very helpful to use that which we know when speaking on spiritual matters in order to better turn knowledge into applied wisdom.

So take, for example, the marriage between man and woman, man symbolizing memory and woman symbolizing love.

Each human has a masculine part (the ego, composed of all our memories) and a feminine part (unconditional divine love).

For the masculine part, how would you be able to improve if you didn't even remember what you did the day before? How would you be disciplined if you lack the memory of why you should be disciplined in that manner? So if we continue to use tangible and earthly objects as symbols for spiritual teachings, the masculine part of the human is symbolized by the brain, which is built to remember.

For the feminine part, the goal is to give love unconditionally. Think of any motherly figure that resonates in your life. That love they give has the ability to help you see the divine within yourself as well as your capacity to awaken the divine in others. The feminine part of the human is the heart, which is built to love.

This works in conjunction with the masculine part and vice versa. They complement each other eternally in beautiful, unique ways.

So as a human evolves, their ego quite literally gets bigger and bigger with memory, similar to how our brain gets bigger and bigger as we create new neurons and connections. As this happens, there comes a point when our ego in this life (or in a future one) becomes multidimensional, which essentially means that ego can hold multiple beliefs and not lose its identity. At this point, that person no longer feels as if there has to be only one true belief and all others are wrong.

This is why many religions fall short of true divinity. They don't cultivate in their followers how to become multidimensional. Rather, they cultivate that their belief system is the correct one to see everything, and every other way isn't as correct or as true as theirs.

The important silver lining in this is that (from my level of consciousness) that belief system may be what is most beneficial for that level of consciousness, BUT it doesn't mean it is most beneficial for all.

Now, if ego is essentially memory, then that means that each ego is incredibly individualized and beautifully unique. Then the feminine part of love would represent our inherent oneness and interconnectivity. Both exist, and both will never cease to exist, as they complement each other just as husband and wife do. Just like a child bears witness that a man and woman came together and consummated, so too does memory and love begotten in form testify of our own heavenly parent. As on this earth, so it is in heaven. As below, so above. One can grasp and struggle by merely speaking on abstract concepts, or they can appreciate the art on earth of man and woman bearing children and use that artistic expression of evolution to express what we were begotten from before we came here.

For my own personal ego as of now, it is quite large, and so my perspective is going to be akin to any consciousness on the same level that bears a similar weight of unique memories. Let's say Hawkins' numbering system of calibrated consciousness, more so in my opinion, refers to behaviors and ways of viewing reality relative to that level of consciousness, and the actual ego is highly diverse and unique. Where Hawkins believes egos are impersonal and not unique, I greatly disagree with that.

I believe the behaviors of each may be more predictable based on each level, but that the memories of each are, by nature, unique. Just like no thumbprint pattern is shared by the same person, I believe that is a perfect representation of the ego. No two people share the exact same egos. Yes, you may find someone on a similar calibrated consciousness level as you who shares similar outlooks, openness, behavior, etc., but still their memories are unique from your memories, and that's absolutely spectacularly beautiful.

So if you hear me referring to NPCs, it's about the behavior of the average level of consciousness. I don't believe anyone is actually not conscious. On the contrary, I believe everything, not just humans, is conscious — beyond the smallest atom all the way up to the largest black hole. Everything in our universe is derived from memory and love.

But back to my ego. Ever since my death day back in 2020, life was colored with my multidimensional perspective, and it will never go back to how it was. Now, in a way, that is superbly freeing. If I want something to change in my life, I know inherently I am the creator and artist of my life, so I can change that if I'd like. I can utilize music, affirmations, rituals, prayer, etc., to bring about that change. That would be the way of memory, the masculine approach.

Or when I'm not sure how it should change for the best to get to where I know I want to go, I choose the feminine approach, which feels closer to riding a wave. I surrender the exact way to get to where I want and let love guide me. Both ways are valid. Both ways are helpful at different times in life. For example, I know ultimately I want to be a professional artist, making and performing in theatre plays, musicals, TV, and movies, but I also know I want to work on my writings as well. I also want to pay off my debt.

I have no clue which job is best for me to do that, so I chose the feminine approach. Literally a week ago, I met a security guard who gave me a card for his job, went to the interview, and got it. Lo behold, this job is perfect for me at this time.

Divine Mother provided perfectly by directing me to this job. If I had chosen differently, I would have taken a job as a threat‑response analyst where, instead of some of those hours being spent on my writings, plays, etc., all of them would have to be on my job because it is active work, not passive like watching surveillance videos for eight hours and walking around passively.

But back to my consciousness level. Currently, how I truly feel is that I'm very alone. I know most people don't see the world how I see it, and so it makes it a very lonely place. It feels as if I'm in the movie Idiocracy. It is oftentimes painful to go about life in this way. I see through people's bullshit really easily. Religions feel like basic algebra. The religious leaders who are constantly virtue‑signaling are annoying to hear over and over, and so forth.

It's at that level where I can synthesize info I don't yet know at a very fast rate, where I can see through the bullshit of our society. You know, all the lies and secrets our own government, corporations, and more tell us to make it seem like it's normal when it's actually just cheaper for them at the expense of our own health and wellness. I'll never forget the terribly propagandized commercial where some corporation in America had these farmers talk about how high‑fructose corn syrup isn't actually bad for you. It made me visibly angry that they could just lie like that on TV and get away with it because they have the money to do so. They can sell a lie and profit off of it because, unfortunately, the average consciousness of humans is not at the level of discernment to pick it apart.

I walk around and I see so many people hurting... obese, wobbling, walking with canes, leathery skin, just looking sick, and it's so sad, and I know they've been lied to. I know it's a mixture of things, but it feels like there is so much work to be done, and I don't even know where to start. Like, the weight of it all is so much to bear. But then I remember what a privilege it is to merely share my consciousness. And if that's all I get to do, then I'm grateful for that.

It feels lonely at this level of consciousness, but it also feels incredibly freeing and powerful. I don't touch much on the power because, to be honest, my own power scares me. I feel so connected to my Oversoul that it feels as if me as my Higher Self has a visible lifeline to my Oversoul, and I have full access to it whenever I want. That is A LOT of responsibility, and I understand why it takes people a while in evolving before they experience life as their Higher Self.

Each stratum of consciousness has its own weaknesses it deals with. Where in lower levels it tends to be addictions to drugs and alcohol to experience bliss, I don't need them because I experience bliss naturally. But for me, in a weird way, it is my power that is my weakness. I don't know how to express it, but it is the capacity to change reality as if I were God, and that sounds so messed up writing that, but I don't know how else to express it. To extremely lower levels of consciousness, they wouldn't understand it and would take it as narcissistic. Think back to when Jesus would state to his haters, "I and my Father are one."

They couldn't believe that he would say such a thing and thought it to be blasphemous and highly narcissistic to bring himself up to God's level. They couldn't make sense of Jesus' consciousness due to their own consciousness not being multidimensional enough to have the knowledge become wisdom in their lives. They could only relate it to what they knew about themselves within their own limitations, and from that point of view they perceived it as blasphemous. But those who are closer to my level of consciousness can come close to getting what I'm saying.

I'll try my best to use what we have on Earth as an example of what I mean. Imagine you are in a museum. You are walking around, enjoying the art, going from piece to piece. As a lower level of consciousness, that would be the end of it. But as someone who has reached my level of consciousness, there are fewer limitations and more multi-dimensionality in that experience.

So for my level of consciousness, just as I would be walking around the art museum, I would experience emotions from these paintings that would take me beyond my body. I would experience bliss all throughout my body in ways I cannot describe. I can also see that just as I am inside the museum, I'm also the kid with the roof off of the toy museum, playing with the toy version of me that's inside, walking him around to each painting. That "kid" could represent the Higher Self that exists as the literal kid playing with the toy version of me.